by Chesya - 03.30

Well, I know it’s over but I still have feelings. I still get a prickly sensation that runs up my spine when I see you. You just try not to look at me, you try not to see the pain that is written all over my face. Instead, you laugh and have a good time. I don’t know how, I can’t read your face. I don’t know what you’re feeling and honestly that bothers me more than anything, but I keep going and for some reason you won’t let me fall out of love with you. It scares me because I don’t want to be in love with you, but I guess I am. I am very much so in love with you. One of those that you can’t fall out of love. It’s pretty lame, I know. I just want to know what you do behind my back, when I don’t see you. You’re probably with her, you forgot about me already – but I guess that okay, I’m better off without you.